Me now already in semester 3,with 7 subjects in total which I have to take during this sem,and mostly of the subjects involve calculation,numbers.WHICH means,I'll dealing with numbers everyday,yeay! -.- isn't F-U-N? my schedule this time really make me exhausted.i hv class in the morning until the evening.Nothing new this time,I'm just fill up my blog with this erm unneccessary post.I should go to sleep now,well..adios : )p/s: I'm so hungry too now,so i guess i shall hunting for food first before go to bed :D

I wish...

things become more complicated after I knew something is not right between us.After having a long conversation arguing with you,then only you admit about you liking this one girl.you know,the feeling of knowing your boyfriend like someone else,its really hurt.Suddenly your tears keep falling,you keep crying and asked,why why you do this to me,am I not that good enough for you?what's so interesting about that girl until you can fall to like her?since when you start to like her?.And i didn't expect the answer would be like this 'i don't love her,i just..i just like her''its not that deep' 'just 2 weeks ago i start to like her' Hell man,i already crying like crazy after like he gv me that kind of answers.cried for the whole day,i feel so miserable.no one knows how I feel at that time.I dont trust him anymore,i don't know how to forgive him.After having a relationship with him like more than a year,its like something unexpected from him.i never thought that he would like someone else eventhou he has a gf.I'm sick of being so loyal to him,thinking of wht i did for him before,how much i sacrifice for him,it hurts me more.why he's being so stupid? i feel so speechless.Ariff,can you compared which one between both of us,me and that girl,that really care about you?can you realise which one is really love you?can you realise which one,you spent time the most and hv alots and alots of memories together?can you tell me,which one of us knw u better? I knw you so well,VERY well.evry single thing about you,i knw it very well.but you,you 're so blind,stupid you can't even know which one is the one who loves you so much.why you are so selfish,you don't even control your feelings towards the girl.why you don't appreciate me?.Now you me to accept you back?do you think that easy to accept you back?its hard man.I just feel so soory to myself,its like i love the wrong guy.I don't know wht to do.sigh*

past , now and future

ouh i feel so stupid to be upset about the past,which is actly I'm still thinking about it now.I don't know why should i feel this way?,it's not like he's my boyfriend anymore,HE'S my EX,note that Aisyah.It's not worth it being upset because of him after what he had done to you before,what a jerk.Why I hv to feel like I'm losing him(as if he's not a jerk and he never dumped me)while I already with someone else,who is much much better than him.Who appreciate me more than he does.But if I lose you,ariff,I will be so miserable,you are important to me.I don't think i can replace him with someone else.okay,end for this topic.

Am I look obviously suprise?well..

fuhhhh,because of poverty of time to blog and a lil of uninterested to blog last time,so i don't hv many posts.btw for the past 2 hours 'someone' called me,and we just chit chat about JPAM,and like suddenly he was like,syahh,I'm into someone now,i got a crush',and i was like okay,ha-ha who was that?whats her name?' (acting like i didn't feel kinda-ouch!)i became speechless for awhile,i told myself then ,well it kinda hurt me but still i should considered it as a good news.well, i know i hv such a great boyfriend,but how about this,many people said and their perception about the first love is hard to erase or forget.what do you think?is't true?or not?.Back to my story,i just feel that i can't hangout with him like before,i dont think i can talk,borak2 with him like before,it's gonna be a lil awkward,i dunno,I can't deny IT that deep inside in my heart,I still love him.just a lil.SERIOUSLY a LITTLE.mayb I used to love him so muchhh before,and i know he deserve with someone else better than me and live a happy life,maybe i'm just being too emotional,btw happy to hear that news from you.Now me with my life and my boyfieeee,Ariff.well,he's a nice guy,seriously,it's hard to find a guy like him outside there,I'm GLAD and very lucky to hv him as my bestie and my boy friend.haha he knw all my bad side,and he has used to it.noiceeeee : D off to skype now.

specially for you

i remembered that i used to call u early in the morning,kejut u saho,kejut u belaja..
i call u everynite before spm,n text u wished u good night.we used to hangout together before,watched movie.lepak kt starbuck.n not to forget this moment,time u blk dr mc naik train,i bngun pagi2,around 5.masak untuk u,then mandi2,betolak ke kl sentral..u selalu ckp i xde prepaid sume,i jlan kaki panas2,just sbb nk beli topup.u penah post bear n card dekat i.but....all the memories just memories.something about us doesn't seems rite these days..u dah berubah.i dunno why.mayb one of the reasons,SPM,i faham,but we still can spent time together after spm.i ingt lg,u call i hari ahad tu,u tell me directly yg u dah kurang sygkn i.i just can't accept it on that time.sbb all of a sudden.unexpected.yes..i cried,n i demam on that day gak.but i x bgtau u yg i demam.i x nk hold on,buti just pikir untuk kebaikan kitaorg,so i have to.but it not last long like i expected.one day after physics's paper,i dunno why,i just missing u so much,i tried to control myself from texting you.but i failed.n u did reply my msg.sakit hati,but i tahan.n i tried to call you,but ur phone off.fine then.the next day i call lagi,u x angkat.mayb u refuse to answering my calls.i just nk tanye khabar u,ok ke buat exam?,u balik bila?,n wish good nite.u penah kata kt i,after spm,u nk webcam dgn i..kuar jln2,n celebrate bday i sekali.but looks like hari2 tu x kn kesampaian.u know what.i really wish to celebrate my bday with my loved one..but when this situation comes up.i feel soo sad ,i tahu i x kn dpt celebrate my bday with you.u dunno idz..i nanges almost every nite,luckily i hv my friends around me,they always comfort me,buat lawak sume.just to be honest,i really love you,n i syg our relationship.i don't wanna break up.but the way you text me n all that,maybe u want that way.i can't force u,i know..if i sorang je yg sygkn u,no point.n idz,u really a nice guy to me,u caring n honest person.maybe i'm not good enough for you.maybe we hv to go our own way..i got to move on,n let you go,but i will be missing you.u such a good bf,seriously.bgs la sapa yg jd gf or wife u in the future.but i really hope that although we are not in a relationship anymore,we still can be friend.kalau boleh jgn la lost contact.but its up to you,if u decided not to contact me as a friend anymore.if mmg u dah jodoh i,insyaAllah kita together balik in the future.if u ade problems ke,i always free to hear it.i can be a good listener.n sorry for being a bad gf..

pengalaman main water game -____-

okeyhh td bngun kol 9,trs kol minah ni,sue..kejutkn die ajk gy swim,then bermula dr sini la ceritenyee,siap2 pakaian sume nk gy kkclub.mama lak kuar ngn sis gy giant.papa lak gy klinik,mmg x de transport la en..janji kol 10.then tunggu punye tunggu dorang x blk lg,so wat keputusan nk jln kaki jela..da 1/4 dr perjalanan nk smpai kkclub,hujan lak,so patah blk.da patah blk tuh tngok2 papa da blk,suro die hanta.then smpai sane,kiteorg pun swim la,act gy sane niat nk practice swimming untk ambil exam nanti,dpt la wat 3 lap cm tu,lps tu ade sorang ni,trainee for swimming ajk kiteorg due join water game ngn 4 org berbangsa india -_-(act nk maki au,nk lps geram).da join tu,for the first game kiteorg hv to run in the water.part tu okeyh la lg sbb kiteorg due win :D. then the second game kene merangkak dlm AIR (sorii ah bunyi cm bodo je game ni)but quite fun.Oh yg second game india2 tu menang,then the third one,kene main dngn pasangan masing2,ape ntah name game tu lupe,err penarik beca sound sort like that.act time tu kiteorg da bole menang,but gelabah nye smpai yg sepatutnye kene tarik kaki partner but ntah ape yg kiteorg gy tarik time tu. lps game tu kiteorg cm da agk panas gile ah,bengang,yeah yeah yeah is not fair la kiteorg loss bnyk energy,sbb air dalam,ling2(india tu) tu sume kt air cetek skit.Then time game tarik tali dlm air,our group tmbah sorang lg..one of the india tu but die tu agk kecik.around standard 6 cm tu.so there were only 2 groups.1 group ade 3 org.another group tu da la sume same size,agk berisi lg dr kiteorg due.n our group lak 1 small kid -_-,n only two of us.mmg kalu tarik tali, kalu fikirkan group lg satu akn menang ah,but dengan semangat bls dendam n lps geram kiteorg due ,kening2* :D kiteorg menang dlm game tarik tali.bapak bangge siod time tu,kiteorg menang!kire due lawan 3 ah nih(ah budak kecik tu x kire la ye,x menolong pun)then smpai la the last game.erm game bola tp dlm air.it just like a net ball game but must play inside the water.ni lg cm bangang,group ling2 tu da wat bape goal ntah first round.then su x thn die ckp wif the trainee suro tuka budak yg group kiteorg tu,then smbung main,hah luv this part.hehe bygkan dorang tige org main baling pas2 bola then br dpt goal,aku just baling bola sekali kt su then su trs goal kan.(padahal en mase baling bola kt su tu,su agk jauh tau,but die lak dpt tngkap bola ngn cunnye ah),but last sekali point kiteorg 9,n dorang 10.erm not bad la.so kiteorg dpt tmpt ke-tige.sepatutnye pdt hadiah tp si trainee tu lak kate die jumpe satu je hadiah.so die bg kt plg berstamina jela dlm keseluruhan sume game tu.act kiteorg xde feel pun x dpt hadiah.cume yg x puas hati mmg pehal ah budak tu leh dpt 'award yg plg berstamina', kalu ikut en kiteorg lg bnyk gune energy.like urghh x nk pun hadiah sume tu,-_-.but kenela fair.okeyh ntah korang bace ni fhm ke x ,pape pun lega da cite sume.kalu x rase cm nk maki2 je lg.xpe2!! still semangat kerjasama kiteorg kuat :D haih ptg ni lak ade tuisyen at 5-7pm,then kol 8 ade STA lak,gile cm penattt hr ni.so gtg now,nk rehat2.haihh hbs satu bdn sakit2.daa!